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Monday, 18 June 2007

Boredum!!

Here at work pondering why the heck am i working here? I just feel like a lump on a log. I mean dont get me wrong. it is a nice job, but it is just so boring and hard to motivate myself. so i am guessing it is just me. i have a hard time getting myself to do everything sometimes. my work gets done. its just a long boring 9 hours to be in this office. i dont know if i should look for a new job at some point or just stick this one out? God help me. i had a wonderful weekend!! It was my brithday and my husband was so sweet to me. took me on a picnic. bought me ralph lauren "Blue" and took me out to TGI Fridays....mmm. yummy!!!

Saturday, 04 February 2006

Currently Listening: Reason For Living
- Freedom

ok so i'm not usually one to post big long quotes from books or anything, but i just did my quiet time with God, and the book that i am doing my devotions with is called "Living the God Life," by John Ortberg, and its amazing...with all that has been happening this week, all the good, all the growing, i felt i needed to share this with others who havent heard, or read it, or just need an uplifting, so here it goes:

MARKED BY JOY

We know that as Christians we are called to, "come out and be seperate," that our faith and spiritual commitment should make us different somehow. But if we are not marked by greater and greater ammounts of love and joy, we will inevitably look for substute ways of distinguishing ourselves from those who are not Christians. This deep pattern is almost inescapable for religious people: If we do not become changed from the inside-out, we will tempted to find external methods to satisfy our need to feel that we're different from those outside the faith. If we cannot be transformed, we will settle for being informed or conformed.

Life counts-all of it! Every moment is potentially an opprotunity to be guided by God into his way of living. Every moment is a chance to learn from Jesus how to live in the kingdom of God.

Jesus consistently focused on people's center: Are they oriented and moving toward the center of spiritual life (love of God and people), or are they moving away from it?"

Ask yourself that question: Am I oriented and moving toward the center of spiritual life (the love of God and of People), or am i moving away from it?

i know the answer for myself, but where are you?

Love Shivvy

Saturday, 28 January 2006

Currently Listening: Faith
- Whistle God's Love

Why is it that when you finally feel for a guy it can sometimes blow up in your face? Maybe it didnt blow up in my face. it just didnt turn out the way i thought it was. i dont understand it. I'm not a person who goes around checking out guys, but when one catches my eye he has to be very special. Being open to someone can sometimes bite you in the butt!! I wish God would just throw that special someone into my lap! I just really want to experience the love that God has for me in a man. i guess im not really ready for a relationship with anyone, or am i? i dont even know, but part of me would have liked to try this one. When you find someone that has everything you want its so hard to just let it go. i always find myself in complicating situations when it comes to guys. But why when one guy catches my eye, which is rare, why cant it ever work out. i am such an open person and express my feelings. but i feel everytime i am open with a guy i want to pull my lip over my head and swallow.

Patience God says. How do you obtain patience when this world teaches you to always reach for what you want. Wait does that even make sense? I dont know. Patience. Oh Patience!!! Lord teach me patience, and that if this feeling that me and this special person had for eachother is real that you will allow me to be a woman of Patience, and allow this to work in Your way, and not my unpatient way! Lord you are the only one who knows what my future holds, and i pray that you will just allow me to just wait on your precious timing. Because Your timing is the best timing! Thank you God for Your calming Spirit. "I will wait for you, Jesus. Your the sun in my horizon. All my hope's in You, Jesus. I can see You now arising." Patience. A common thing i am reminded daily about. God i never want to take my eyes off of You! Thank you Lord for allowing me to see all the great and wonderous things that you do for me daily. And from writing this i now feel more at peace. Still confused a bit, i cant lie, but i will allow myself to just give it to you, and take it and do with it what you want. Thank you Jesus!

If anyone has any advice on my craziness, if you can make sense to it all, let me know, i could always use advice!

Friday, 18 November 2005

Currently Reading: NIV Faith in Action Study Bible : Living God's Word in a Changing World (New International Version)

Alright so it is 3:40am friday morning and i am working the overnight shift @ my job!!! Wow im getting a lil tired!!! I work the overnight again tomorrow night, well i guess its actually tonight seeing that its already tomorrow...if you catch my drift....

So it snowed finally for the first time....bout dang time!!! I really wanted it to start snowing soon....and guess what, i got it, and now i want it to end!!! HAHAHA....i can never be happy i guess.

So nothing reeally is new. Just working a lot. My mom is doing good. She is starting to heal better. Still needs prayer, she is healing slower than normal.

Man i am finding it so hard to think of whats new and happening in my life. Maybe because it is 3:45am right now. Its so different, cause if i was at home or out with my friends at this time, i wouldnt be tired. But when i am cleaning, sitting, and working i feel dead to the world.

Well i just found out how much my student loan payments are and i almost crapped my drawers!!! I couldnt believe it!! I will be in debt the rest of my life!!! I just cant believe it. And i feel as though right now, Grad school is definately not an option. Its to crazy to even think about. I want to go out to Kansas City, Missouri to start Seminary next year, but i really cant afford that for a while. Who knows!! I am hoping to go to Panama for a month. I want to join a Total Immersion program. A bit expensive but i could fundraise. It will be a 2 for 1 deal. I will learn the language and culture that i love, and i will also see Amable. Oh that would be fun, we will see. Here i am saying i am poor and i am talking about spending money. Oh Boy...alright back to cleaning. Miss everyone!!!!